Tuesday, 3 September 2024
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Hello. All is well. God is love

When my brother visited me, he told me his partner liked Nietzsche's writing. That had me confused. What? That misogynistic, nihilistic dude? Nonetheless, it made me curious. I haven't read his work, but after looking a bit into him, I see he's a cutie (if you let him be).

Anyway, what happens when genes and memes clash? When your nature is suppressed to conform? I think your nature will manifest into pathology and perversity. Hence, one must be careful of ideas that cause shame and guilt. This is an issue of religious dogma and social expectations in general.

When I started experiencing hallucinations and trying to understand them, I found out about Carl Jung. I had heard of him before, but only a little. I still don't know much, but his ideas hold weight, specifically his concept of the shadow. However, one must still understand it's a model. This is why I generally prefer doing it my way instead of reading others, as I believe many things are lost in abstract models, but there's still a lot of value in taking inspiration.

I've found that many misunderstand these things. For example, if you truly understand and incorporate what Nietzsche is talking about with his three metamorphoses, you'll be granted the keys to heaven. Hehe.

Anyway, I've started to better understand why people behave like they do. I now have compassion for this person I talked about in my 43rd writing. I believe this person is completely broken, far gone from reality, leading to their destruction. Also, no illegal activity happened per se. It was simply mean girl stuff if you know.

Another woman warned me about her, and I later apologized for not listening and thinking her yapping about mean girls and cliques was just silly nonsense. What causes a mean girl? One aspect could be nature suppression, escalated by emergent group behavior. People have both masculine and feminine traits. Of course, it's more complex. For example, it can also be because society tells you to embrace masculine traits and suppress feminine traits. The same is true for boys. Especially today, people get confused by conflicting ideas, old and new clashing.

I don't hold much in this. Just interesting to ponder about. Whoever you are, I will always love you no matter what. You can't take that from me, hehe.